I’m a month more to go now and very excited to meet my last little one who was determind to be in this world. I am not sure you all know the story but, I had been finished having kids after I had Niki. I wasn’t planning on having any children and took precautions not to get pregnant however while with my ex “J” I will call him, we used protection like crazy and were very careful and I was on my period at the time when the precaution failed. The condom broke and boom, right after we found out it had I knew deep down through intuition that I was pregnant. He thought I was just freaking out for nothing because the odds were slim to him. I however knew better because I could sense it very strongly.
Weeks went by and I found out I was right and I was pregnant and he dumped me because I wouldn’t get rid of the baby. I do not believe in abortions and I decided if the doctor said I was okay to have the baby I was going to. I had been having some tests reguarding some health stuff with abnormal cells, but the doctor said the results were good so far and it was all good and safe for me to have the baby. I was scared at first and nervious about having, now my fifth baby, but you know, God has plans for us and we were all meant to be here for a reason and for some reason this baby was meant to be born. I am blessed to have all my children. I get judged a lot for how many I have, but you know what, i don’t regret having as many as I have. They are all wonderful children. Three are with my ex husband of 8 years and they have special needs and get better support with my ex considering he has more family and friends to help out. I am raising full time my son Niki who is with my other ex of 2 years and now this one that I am due to have from my last ex who dumped me after a month. I wasn’t sad about it though, after hearing and seeing how he reacted and things he said about the baby etc and blaming me for the pregnancy I am glad he doesn’t want anything to do with me or the baby because we are better off without someone like that.
I am happy now and I can see my other three children when I am able to which isn’t too often with their special classes and schooling and my pregnancy, but they know I love them very much and and I help them out when I can and see them when I can.
I am now 32 weeks along and excited to meet either Claira or Corey. I am also looking forward to it being over because this pregnancy has been very hard on my body as far as aches and pains go. I get a lot of braxton hicks and have been since I was 18 weeks along. I have a lot of heart burn and back aches and just haven’t been too comfortable this pregnancy. I am looking forward to the end and closing up shop after and never having to worry about getting pregnant again. Not like I’m going to get out there and be with guys or anything. All the men I have been with i had relationships with and I thought it was the real deal, but it wasn’t. Three frogs and no prince. It’s okay though, things happen for a reason, my children came out of the relationships and I love them more then life itself and am so very thankful for them.
Niki is growing up fast and is always doing something really cute each day. He says kisses now and up. He can say other words like, hot dog, mommy, daddy, nana, grandpa. He does a lot of babble talk and he gestures a lot with what he wants. he will fallow me around with his blanky I call “His Cuddle Blanky.” and bottle and it means he is thirsty. Or he will gesture he is tired by rubbing his eyes and handing me his bottle. He will grab my hand and move it to objects he wants to use, like the mouse to the computer. haha. he is adorable. I notice he is more shy to talk etc in front of others though. I am hoping he gets picks up more and more. I have never experienced that yet considering my three other children have special needs and still have trouble with speaking. I never got to experience the early words, or early sentences etc of children. I know that probably sounds odd, but I haven’t. A lot of what Niki has done so far has blew my mind because it was like experiencing it for the first time and it is so good to see and watch.
Back to my pregnancy.. I am 32 weeks and a couple days and have another doctors appointment on the 18th. I am going to the doctor every two weeks now instead of every 4 and soon it will be down to every week. When he said to see him every 2 I got so excited because I knew it was getting close to having the baby.
I am pretty much prepared for the baby to arrive besides getting some more baby clothes after she or he arrives considering I don’t know the gender for sure yet and don’t want to buy the wrong colour or buy a whole bunch of yellow and white stuff. lol Bleh
I am still hoping for my little girl, but, it doesn’t matter either way, I am so excited.
I am kinda scared about the labour being that it seems not so long ago from Niki’s labour and I remember the pain vividly and I do not look forward to feeling that again. So it frightens me and I have to just breathe and focus on the baby being here and not the pain that comes with it. Meditate more.
I have gained about 23 pounds so far this pregnancy which seems like a lot for me eek. Though I usually gain up to 35 during my pregnancy’s any ways and I can work it off after and I bought some after pregnancy clothing to look forward to. I can’t wait to fit back into my clothes and get back into shape. It will be such a wonderful feeling to get back in shape and know that I wont be growing out of my clothes again and baring another baby again. lol I am FANEETOEEE!
I grew up from a long line of big families so I fit right into that. :p
I have three brothers and two sisters and my dad is a family of like 8 and my mom of five I think. She is a twin.
Well I’m tired, which has been a normal thing lately, can’t get enough sleep, so I’m going to take some heart burn stuff I got called Gaviscon since I have acid in my throat ugg and hope to get a good night sleep.