Last night I must have been really tired because I fell asleep early and slept right through my pill alarm and didn’t wake up till 10pm. I finally remembered I hadn’t taken my pills and took them and now this morning I am paying for it.
It’s an off day again and if you don’t understand what I mean by that, allow me to elaborate a little bit so you understand what an off day means for me. Everything is slow. It’s as thought I am looking at the world in slow motion. I can’t keep up, my speech is slow, my movement is slow and I twitch a lot. I think a lot slower if at all. This blog is a struggle to write, I’m surprised I am even able to do it. I have moments of spaciness where I think I’m going to disappear and fall out of my body, but then it goes away. I imagine scenario of how someone would know I need help because I live on my own.
I hate days like these and I dread being around others on them because I’m afraid they will think I’m dumb or something because I’m slow, but it’s my stupid epilepsy and medication. Sometimes I just want to stop taking it and wonder if it will all go away, thinking it’s the pills, but then I know it’s not. “Sigh”
Does Epilepsy even go away?
Not to mention, I still have a bit of a cold which doesn’t help my slow mo day at all. I guess I shouldn’t miss pills. Not like I meant to though, I still can’t believe I was so tired I slept through the musical alarm I have set for my reminder. I must have thought it was a part of my dream.