Pap test

I’m really scared of my hospital test I have to get done. I really don’t want it to hurt. Has anyone had a Colposcopy done before? I sure haven’t. My mom’s taking me, but she wont be able to go into the room with me, so I’ll be all alone in there with the scary ass doctors. I hate hospitals and I hate tests to and, I really don’t like stuff that involves messing around with tools in my lady areas. Stupid tests.

I really hope after this test it comes back good because I am even more sacred of being put to sleep. you know when they put that mask thing over your face to breathe in to knock you out? Gawd that freaks me out. I feel like their going to suffocate me or something. it just doesn’t feel right. It really frightens me. 😦

I’m acting all strong about it, but really I’m really scared about it and worried and hoping it all goes okay.

So, I’ve received my call back from my Doctor that I was waiting for in an unwanted way. I just wanted to find out and get the results over with and take the nessasarry actions I need to. In case your lost on what I’m waiting for, I’ll fill you in. I had a scare last year when I had my yearly girl ducky test. You women know exactly what I am referring to.

Well, my cells were changing as the doctors said and they ran another test 6 months after they told me that to see if it developed into cancer. I mean the good part is, if it does then it’s treatable, the bad part is, I just don’t want to have to go through that and the procedure even though people have told me it’s not that bad. Still… it’s scary and I don’t like it. I am worried, but I have to just keep calm and know that everything will work out fine and that I know even if I don’t get back the results I want to on Monday, I know that there is a way to get rid of any abnormal cells before they start doing weird shit and being lame inside me.

Not a very pleasant thing to hear, but you know at least I caught it early and not late and it may just be nothing and the results could be good. I’m hoping for that. I’ve got my mommyboo to hold my hand through it either way. 🙂